May 25 – A Flirt

I love women. I’ve always loved women. That’s my mother’s fault. I can admit that I’m charming and . . . a flirt. Even though, I’m Robin’s boyfriend, I’m still a man. I can appreciate a pretty woman. That said, why would I do anything but look? I mean, I have Robin; so why would I want anyone else?

I know she’s insecure because of her past and I’m trying to make sure she knows I’m not going anywhere. I didn’t cheat when she broke up with me for “Nikolas.” Okay, I asked a few women out, but all women who know Robin and know how much I love her. There was never any chance of any of them seriously going out with me. If I did that, she has to know that I won’t cheat when I have her back in my life and bed.

As much as I hate her being insecure, it worked in my favor this time. In fact, she may have created a monster. She took me home and we did things I can’t even mention. It was amazing. That probably wasn’t the right thing for her to do. Between that and watching her try not to act jealous, it could really give me an incentive to flirt.

May 22 – Neurotic Girlfriends

I thought my head was going to explode. Robin and I continued our conversation about her moving in with me and she threw up every road block she could think of. As much as I love Robin, she’s absolutely neurotic. She had the audacity to dare me to admit that she drives me crazy. Of course, I did. She does. Robin even went down the road of setting boundaries. Like we’ve ever really respected those. Every time we set rules to make everything absolutely clear, we break them and then we fight. Why go through that when we don’t have to?

I know she wants to live with me as much as I want to live with her. I also know she’s terrified that what we have will be lost. Everyone she’s ever loved has left her behind in some way. I’m not going to add to that number. We’re finally happy – both of us. I’m going to do everything in my power to keep it that way.

May 21 – In Need of Therapy

We do need therapy. My father was right. Not like I’d ever tell him that.

How did we get here? Robin used to be the one wanting a firm commitment and now after just a few months, I’ve taken over the role. I know she’s been through a lot over the past few months. What with recovering from a gunshot wound and a hostage situation to being blackmailed to lie to me about her and Nikolas and being forced to keep the secret about Craig, she’s been on a rollercoaster. But then, so had he.

Now we’ve found the cure for Nikolas and we’re back together. But she still doesn’t want to move in with me. Or rather she’s afraid to move in with me. She says we’re totally incompatible. She’s wrong. She’s my best friend. We can handle anything as long as we’re together. I just have to find a way to make her see that.