November 29 - Not Quitting
The Whitney procedure didn’t help Robin’s outlook. It was supposed to be his turning point and we almost lost him on the table, but we didn’t. Somehow as a result, Robin believes that she’s a failure, when she’s anything but. Her research and brilliance is what got Mr. Whitney to the point where he could get through a surgery. It’s because of her that he’s alive. Robin’s biggest problem is that she gets close to her patients. It’s also one of the things that make her an exceptional doctor. Robin, Ms. “Optimism”, has hit a wall and she’s going through this crisis of faith. But I guess the OR incident plus the anniversary of Stone’s death would have an adverse affect.
Stone. Robin’s first love died young and that is imprinted in her mind and heart. I would never try to take that love away from her and I know she loves me, but it still feels like a competition. Maybe, it’s just my competitive nature, but Stone’s memory has been perfected in Robin’s mind. It’s what we do when we loss the people we love – we remember the good and put it in a box. I don’t know if Stone had lived whether he and Robin would still be together. I’d like to think that she would have still become the brilliant doctor that walked into my OR a year ago and turned my world on its axis. Either way we’re together now and I’m not quitting on her or letting her quit without a fight.